There comes a point in your walk with God when He asks you to stop hiding behind silence and start walking in truth and not out of pride, but out of peace. That’s where I am right now. I’ve carried a lot quietly for a long time, but I’m realizing that silence can sometimes give the enemy a foothold. Silence in it's season is a good thing but sometimes conversations need to be had for transparency. And I refuse to live bound by fear, assumption, or misunderstanding any longer. I know I don’t owe explanations, but I also believe that walking in the light brings freedom.
Ephesians 4:27 says, “Do not give the devil a foothold.” And John 8:32 reminds us, “Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”
Some will understand my heart, and some may not and that’s okay. I’m at peace with that. My desire is not to prove anything, but to live in honesty before God and others. My heart is to move forward with grace, healing, and integrity.
I am a person that if God says go, I will go, and if He says stay, I will stay. Sometimes He tells me to do things that I don’t even understand, but I try to be faithful in it even when it hurts. There are parts of my personal testimony that I will eventually share in it's due season, because it is just that, my testimony.
Over the last three months, God laid it upon my heart to step back, to rest, to be still and know, and to not move but to walk out some personal and even hard things with Him. One of them being an unwanted divorce. But it wasn’t until this past week that God began to bring some clarity. I began to dream again. Not full clarity, but some. He currently has me back at The Church at Bethel as me and my boys continue to walk through this season of healing. I know there is a new assignment there, and honestly, I don’t know for how long, but I will do what God leads me to do.
In saying this, I want to make it very clear that I did not leave House of the Promise for any reason other than God saying that my time and assignment there was done for now otherwise I'd still be there. I love everyone there deeply. They are an awesome group of people doing great things for the Kingdom, and I am truly thankful for the connections, family, and relationships that were built there and those I still have.
For anyone who doesn’t know me well, just know this: I never see church as “that church” or “this church,” but as one body. There is no “this group” or “that group” in the Kingdom. I honestly don’t even believe in memberships. I believe God will have me in more places in the future because His heart is for the whole body of Christ to move together. I don’t church hop, I follow the fire by night and the cloud by day. (Him)
My heart is for people, especially those who are broken and lost trying to find their way. I just want them to see Jesus and to know Him and His heart. So, if you’re reading this and we’ve connected along this faith journey, please know I’m so thankful that God allowed our paths to cross. I love you, I’m praying for you, and I’m cheering you on. If I haven’t been the best supporter, listener, or if I’ve seemed absent, please know I’m sorry. I’ve been walking through some unfamiliar territory in this season and I'm doing the best I can but most importantly I just didn't want to be out of alignment with the Lord.
I’m looking forward to what God has in store for me and my boys next, in new relationships, in ministry, and in life. He is so good and so faithful. Even when we get rerouted or drift off course, He so lovingly corrects us and sets us right back on the path.
Galatians 1:10 says, “Am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ.”
I’m learning that peace doesn’t always come from being understood but it comes from being obedient. And obedience will always bring clarity in God’s time.
Lord, thank You for truth that frees and not condemns. Thank You for peace that steadies my heart even when others may not understand. Help me to walk in honesty, humility, and grace. Let everything I say and do reflect Your love and bring You glory. Close every door the enemy has tried to use against me, and open the ones that lead to healing, purpose, and peace. Thank You for rerouting me when I’ve drifted and for never giving up on me. I trust You with this next season. In Jesus’ name, amen.
Love you all! xoxo
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